Sand Harbor: “Stones”

In happy times and sad times, I have always turned to music. It helps me cope with and make sense of life. Music is also one of the few things that helps me process grief. The primary reason I wanted to start this journal is to chronicle the music that has been comforting me during this dark time. It’s music that has deep meaning for me, whether mirroring my pain in a specific way or sending a message of hope or just reminding me of happy times spent with Kim or Mom. Much of it is poignant, but not all of it is sad.

Whenever possible, I am going to do my best to create original video for these songs. It’s important to me to personalize this experience. If, along the way, they can console even one other person who’s going through a difficult or painful time, I would be so pleased.

Since Kim died, I have listened to “Stones” by Barbarossa more times than I can count. It’s a simple message, but one I desperately needed to hear. The weight of my grief is crushing, devastating, too heavy a burden to bear at times, but in my heart I know that there are still wondrous and beautiful and amazing things out there in the world. And I will find them. I just have to look a little harder now.

Stones that I carry around
Every stone a story that weighs me down

But there is gold hidden by rock and sand
I have to search a little harder now

Sharp as a marble, these stones keep my feet on the ground
All this experience weighs me down

But there is gold hidden by rock and sand
I have to search a little harder now
But there is gold hidden by rock and sand
I have to search a little harder now

(If you like this song, please support the artist by downloading from iTunes. He’s also going to be releasing solo stuff under his name, James Mathé. I’m so sad that I missed him playing in San Francisco last night.)